Vanished

I vanished looking for what I didn’t know. I was searching, expecting to find something to make me complete. I tried fulfilling other people’s wishes as I compromised my own, hoping I’d be satisfied too. I bent myself to fit the mold until I almost snapped. I didn’t want the chaos that followed when I said “enough.” I tried to silently comply but my spirit refused. You had to know it was too much. But in your story I was never a victim. It’s all on me and I’ll take the blame. So long as I’m free of your control I plead guilty. My eyes dimmed until the light faded. Now that you’re gone it’s coming back. It must’ve slipped my mind to tell you, my spark can’t be put out so easily. The more you try to fan it out the fiercer my fiery heart resists.